Today is day 100 for me in Sweden. When I looked at my timer today and saw that number, I was shocked. I started to think of what I've already done and what I want to do. Time flies so fast here. You just close your eyes once and then another week is over again. The last 3 months before I left Germany, felt like 2 years. I figured it is, because of all the crazy stuff that happened. Like these kind of things you'll remember when you're 75. Remarkable. And here the weeks pass, I'm in school most of the time and I do some fun stuff after school and on the weekends. And I like going to school here, I like all my teachers a lot and I don't even mind studying so much. That's my theory on why time passes so quickly here. But I'm happy, I'm so happy to be here. And I talked about it to a friend, who said: It does not matter how fast the time flies, as long as you're happy. It already is remarkable if you are happy. And really, I couldn't ask for more than this deep joy.
My adventure so far has been difficult and beautiful.
And I love my german family and friends so much, but I stopped missing you. I'm right there, where I belong. And I wouldn't want it any other way.
An exchange year is a roller coaster ride, everyone has told me that a thousand times. And I discovered how true it is. One week ago I was super down and now I'm euphoric. And it comes out of nothing. Sometimes you suddenly get super happy, when everything is just super bad. And sometimes you're super sad and don't even understand the reason. Then you have to make sure, that you do things that make you happy again. Like you had bipolar disorder. But it's normal they say.
And even if you think that nobody cares about you and how you feel, (which is not true) and nobody tells you how brave or how strong you are. Then you just have to tell it yourself. It might be super hard to say: "I did good and it didn't work though, but it was the best I could do and I'm happy with what I did." It's super important. It's a lesson I learned here.
"And every battle scar I have, if nothing else, it's proof
That I fucked up more times than I should've
More times than I would've liked, if I could take it back I still wouldn't
Cause life is a roller coaster ride
I make it if I try"
And I might complain a lot. About the weather, about Swedes. But honestly I love all of this so much and I wouldn't give it up for anything in the world.
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